a few thoughts about my current life status.

My life is sort of strange right now. A mix of complete freedom, a transient, bohemian feel, and yet a feeling of being tied down. I live out of a duffle bag at least 2 days a week, if not more. I keep my toiletries in a carry-case, because my bathroom is too small to put them anywhere. My shower is full of rubbermaid containers, because I don't have enough storage. I work the hours that I choose to work, and half of my job can be done listening or watching whatever I want. I get paid well for what I do, and I constantly cruise thrift shops and yard sales.

And then there is the other half of my life, where I get dressed up, take my nose piercing out, and get called "Miss Caine." A place that knows almost nothing about me, and where little kids hug my legs, and get in trouble for making rasberry sounds on their arms. A place where I feel like a deer in the headlights. As if someone will find me out at any moment..and discover that I know very little about children.

And then there is a third part of me. The part that knows that I am made for something greater, and longs for the day that I will stop feeling disatisfied, and longs for friends that understand how I became who I am. A part of me that gets tired of trying to say and write witty things, and desires to lay on the floor, listen to music, and bask in the Lord.